Written For: comment_fic for cascadewaters
Prompt: NCIS, Tony, if abandonment tastes like leftover linguini...
Disclaimer: I'm not Bellesario or CBS, so I don't claim to own them.
Word Count: 318
Crossposted: ncisfanfic; ncis_fic; ncis_haven; tonydinozzo
Summary: A feeling of abandonment leaves Tony considering his future with the team. (a tag to Boxed In)
Tony dropped the reheated linguini unceremoniously in the sink with a clatter. It had evidently been left unattended for too long. The taste of the one bite was lingering in his mouth, mixing with the metallic tang of the pain pills. Rubbing his injured arm, he moved into the living room and sank into his couch with a heavy sigh.
He couldn't really blame Ziva for not wanting him to show at her little gathering. People had a right to decide whom they did and did not want present in their own homes. However, that fact did not keep the old hurts from creeping inside Tony's guts.
The first time he vividly remembered being left out and behind was in that hotel in Hawaii. Ordering room service on his own had been a thrill at first but the second night had led to tears. The third night led to his creation of the first DiNozzo rule: DiNozzo's Don't Cry.
He knew that there had been other moments before that, but they were part of the blur that was his lonely childhood and the only child of a man worth millions. Things improved when he went to college, but then college led to law enforcement.
Each time he left for a new city, it was because the people he thought had his back didn't. In Peoria it had been rumors that he was gay. Philly was the undercover operation gone to hell in a hand basket. Baltimore… He sided with the feds against his own precinct.
Now he was one of those feds and it appeared that even Gibbs' strong code that fell inline with Semper Fi didn't protect him from being left behind. Perhaps it was time to look at other options, just as he had done in the past. Because, like the limp, leftover linguini, Tony knew he had left a bad taste in his team's mouth.